LYRICS by Susan A Carson
What If I Want You Back
©2025 Susan A. Carson
How can I say this?
I thought everything was fine
Never had any idea
That I was living on borrowed time
Sooner or later
You will come and say something to me
Some kind of bullshit line
That blames this all on me
But what if I want you back?
What if I want you back?
I guess I never had any chain on you
I guess I’m not what I thought you thought I was all about to you
You keep on spreading yourself out for everyone you meet
There’s never been an indication that you’d ever cross the street
Do me a favor and spare me the explanation of your innocent misunderstanding
Yes, I know you did it all for me
I get more respect from the neighbor’s barking dog who’s keeping me up all bloody night
Just like these, just like these dreams of you
So what if I want you back?
What if I want you back?
What if I want you back?
What if I want you back?
What if I want you back?
Hey Wait a Minute
©2025 Susan A. Carson
She was a pretty flower
She was the moon and sunshine too
She charged by the hour
You knew all this and then some too, hey hey!
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Stories that she told made you wonder
Pictures of the two of you made you feel so old
Still, you thought she loved you
Still you never thought she could be so cold, hey hey!
Hey wait a minute! Hey wait a minute
Hey, I am begging you, Just wait, just wait, just wait Hey!
Hey wait a minute, This is not the right one man
Hey wait a minute, Ooh Ooh Ooh Ooh Ooh
All your friends they tried to tell you
She was just wasting time
But everytime she held you, you thought
She’s all mine! No No! Hey Wait a Minute!
Hey wait a minute! Hey wait a minute
Hey, I am begging you, Just wait, just wait, just wait Hey!
Hey wait a minute, This is not the right one man
Hey wait a minute, Ooh Ooh Ooh Ooh Ooh
All your friends they tried to tell you
She was just wasting your time
But everytime she held you, you thought
She’s all mine! No No! Hey Wait a Minute!
What Do I Know?
©2025 Susan A. Carson
These rules don’t fit
These lines aren’t clear
You’ve boxed me in
Too close to breathe
Look at the birds
They fly
I watch the clouds
Feel them cry
Without you
There’s no “I”
But what do I know?
What do I know?
Two geese take flight
Sunsets in blue
One left alone
I can’t find you
Dorian
©2025 Susan A. Carson
New name, new friends, new place
Rolls the window down and checks the mirror
Cigarette is burning, no turning back
No time to think about the fear
Of what was wrong or right then
It doesn’t matter, he’s just got to get away
To where no one knows his name or
What brings him to say the things he doesn’t want to say
But in the trunk a frame of gold
A picture of a boy who never will grow old
Dorian drives away
There’s nothing anyone can say
Dorian drives away
Pulls in unnoticed, unimpressed
Looks just like the town he saw before
Amazing how some deals
Have ways of leaving you just feeling like a whore
It’s all so grey, where is the sun?
Where do you go when you just wanna be someone
What is the point of dreaming now?
But things don’t work out like they did in fairy tales
He made a deal for life but bargained straight for hell, and now he drives away
Dorian, Dorian drives, Dorian, Dorian drives
Beautiful
©2025 Susan A. Carson
I could’ve been a pro ball player
England’s queen’s got nothing on me
I could’ve been an astronaut
Fly you and me to Mercury
I saw the way you introduced me
Don’t worry, baby, they don’t know
They can’t see the way I make you sing
Baby, they don’t know
So what if I’m not, So, what if I’m not
What if I’m not beautiful?
I could been the top of my class
I could’ve won their Nobel Prize
Maybe I could shine for Mommy and Daddy
Just tell ‘em it’s the look in my eyes
Stop making excuses for me
I don’t need you to make it okay
I could been anything for you, but I’m just here
What if I become Miss America
What if I become Kingdom Come
What if nothing else really matters, baby
What if no one else ever comes along
What if I was your holy Moses
Lead you right into heaven’s gate
What if I could make you feel so good that Nothing else could ever make it go away
Oh My Love
©2023 Susan A. Carson
There’s a heartbreak in me
I think it got its name
When I went down in a heap of rubble
And floated up in flames
There’s a sadness in my heart
It’s crying out for you
I don’t think I could even deal
If you came back to the truth
Oh oh oh
Yeah yeah yeah
Oh my my my
Oh oh oh
Yeah yeah yeah
Oh My Love
I am sitting at the bar
Where we always used to go
I am laughing at the things we talked about
That no one knows
I am lying in my bed
And I feel like I should cry
I am watching memories dance across
A movie screen of sky
Bridge: In another time
You would realize
In another time
You’d stay
Ocean Hymn
©2025 Susan A. Carson
Standing on this long shore
Sun’s about to fall
Listen to the ocean
Mother of us all
I could stay out here for hours
Just bathing in this breeze
Blow away my troubles
Feel my pain begin to ease
Focusing your eyes on the line of
That deep blue horizon
Looking out as far as your eyes can see
You are not alone here
If you’re standing at the ocean
Because she always holds a little bit of me
All my dreams and all my memories
Are crashing in these waves
Folding over gently
All the loving that I gave
And sometimes if you listen
To the Ocean as she roars
You can hear the wisdom
Of those who stood here long before
Shame
©2003 Susan A. Carson
It’s been a long time since I’ve seen you, friend
I wonder if you still know my face
I still talk to you most every day
And I wonder if you can hear the shit I’m saying
I wonder if you’re smiling now
But it’s just a shame, yeah it’s just a shame
I had to go
Now golden leaves have all come down around here
And you are wearing your gold ring
I’m still trying to laugh at what a mess I’ve made
And you are praying for something
I wonder if you’re smiling now
I wonder if you’re high
I wonder if you’re smiling now
I wonder if you’re high
Seven O’clock
©2025 Susan A. Carson
Seven o’clock on a Friday night
Gotta find something to do
I should be out having fun with my friends
But instead I’m waitin’ ‘round for you
You said you’d be here ‘bout an hour ago
But it looks to me you just ain’t here
I better not find you been out all this time
With your friends getting loaded my dear
‘Cause I’ve been home waitin’ for you
And I know it’s not the right thing to do
So when you finally come through the door
I won’t be here anymore…for you
I’m tired of waitin’ on a man that
Ain’t got no respect for me
You say you’ll call, you say it’s all
You wanna do, just wanna be with me
But every time I need ya wanna hold ya wanna squeeze ya
Seems you always got some place to be
I’ll tell you what, baby, you can do what you want
But just don’t think you’re coming home to me
I thought that you were gonna save me
But all you do is let me down
I’ve been living on maybes
But here we go again, it is
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Well, I’ve been…